Well I have decided to start this blog because it will be a great way to share what Joseph and I am going through and its a good way to vent!

I am first going to say that Joseph and I want to be parents. We are ready to be parents. Some people say that we are too young and that we should enjoy our time together now. A baby changes everything. I know all of this and so does he. I am glad that we have found all of our problems now. If we would have waited another 2yrs i wouldnt be able to get pregnant. We have had long talks about our kids and how we want to raise them. I was born to be a mother, and he was born to be a father. Sometimes I get really scared that everything that we are doing now isnt going to work. And I will never have children. But in trying to stay positive, I honestly CANT WAIT.

So here is the story up till now:

Apr. 2009 - I got diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) which is basically my body has a resistance to insulin and I have sugar follicles that have formed on my ovaries :( I was put on a medication that was supposed to regulate my insulin levels. It was horrible it made me feel awful everyday of my life for like 3mths.

Sept. 2009 - bloodwork said that the medication isnt working :( so my dr doubled my dose. i felt even worse then.

Feb. 2010 - my dr said that everything in my body was regulated and that i just needed to start clomid to get everything working like its suppose to be. (Clomid is a fertility drug that is the most widely given fertility drug.) but first he wanted to make sure that i didnt have any blockages in any of my tubes. and he alson wanted Joe to get tested

May 2010 - had the most painful procedure where they ran a dye through my tubes and too xrays of them. OUCH. we got the results back and i dont have any blockages, but Joe has slow swimmers. :( the dr gave us the option of trying the clomid and after i sucessfully ovulate for 3 mths and i am still not preggo then its Joe's turm to go to the dr. or he could just go there right off the bat. we chose to try the clomid first.

June 2010 - Clomid mth 1
Well... it was interesting to say the least. I take the Clomid for 5 days and i am an emotional mess the whole time. the pill really messes with you. I had my blood taken and found out at the end of the month that i didnt ovulate :( so my dr double my dose for July.

July 2010 - Clomid mth 2
We were a little heartbroken that we didnt have beginners luck last mth. but this is going to take time and patience, and we both have to stay stressfree! Last thursday I started taking 100mg of clomid instead of 50mg last mth. this time instead of crying the whole time, i was angry. constantly angry. not fun! i will get my blood taken on the 31st to see if i ovulated, then we should know if i am preggo by the second week of august. FINGERS CROSSED!!!

That is all for now.